Day 10

 11.59pm

Wed, 25 March 2020

Nothing special, mama woke up in early morning and went to Kemiling and I woke at 8am, I still lie in my bed and played with my phone then papa came to the kitchen for breakfast and he search the chicken  from last night but they're gone, it turn out mama takes the chicken to kemiling with her I guess mama want give it to mbah but I don't know I mean she should've leave some for me and papa, papa bought nasi uduk for his and I feel bad, I mean mama used cook for us for papa and chicken from KCF is just ordinary food back in our old times but now every things is opposite it's sad just think about it.. then one hour later when I checked the table inside mama's room I found out that mama left only one chicken for me, if I know more faster I'll just give it to papa..

At noon mama came home, nothing special today even with papa in here.. I realize we can't back to the old days, in the old days maybe a day like this papa must be bring us to a mall, shopping, buy that we wanted and mama she's became herself she'll scold us because we buy useless stuff, then maybe we'll go eat to fancy restaurant, God I miss that I'm not lying I really miss that.. now we're just silent even I feel like we're stranger with each other in this house.. 

when mama came she did cook for us but papa still refuse to ate, and mama told me that when mama gave mbah that chicken she's so happy.. and I felt a little bit guilt because earlier I annoyed about it. 

Mama also called PLN again today because last night was rained a lot so the electric error again. Arounn 5pm papa said goodbye to me and he said that he already transferred some money to my bank account and I just said yeah to him and be careful on the road, then after papa back to his home now it's just two of us again.

at 6pm I sleep away and wake at 7pm and once I wake I freak out because it's too dark and I'm alone at my room in upstairs so I rushed turn on all the lamp, and I just played my phone usually I have a hard time to sleep at night but today is different I mean even I didn't do much today my body feels so tired and I'm already feeling sleepy now, so right now I'll try to sleep.

Quote of the day

'' Hope is a dangerous things''

Song of the day

HINOMARU by RADWIMPS