Day 18

 11.59pm

Sunday, 15 Nov 2020

Today is really a definition of a bad day, I wake up a little bit late and that cause so much trouble I mean it really, because I wake late and mama hasn't come home yet so there's no vegetables and she so freak out about that, and because of that she asked kak bili to market with her then she felt pain on her back and when I came to the kitchen I helped her but she keep babbling and because we run out the flour her food became now what she want then I told her to get a rest, kak bili even told her to get rest.. and not a while after that the bad dream became real.. she got sick again and she kept calling me and I don't have any idea what I'm going to do because I also confuse as hell and she kept scream at me about the pain she felt because I don't know what to do so I called mama and asked her, she said just compress her back with hot water so I did that.. mba iyun even don't want to know about this so she left the house and of course I don't want burdensome kak bili, so I just yeah... then after 2 hours she back to normal, then I told her to just rest for the whole day. 

after the drama since morning at night I just waited my result from the test yesterday, and also mayang didn't came today, there's no call or text from her.. she just disappear.. but I felt relief too that she didn't came today because I already have so much drama today and right now I just want to be alone and waiting my final result.. and when 7pm finally my score came out and as I predict my score for structure is really bad, I ranked at 82th from 400+ and I got 457 for my toefl predict..